How I got Dyscalculia...
At first, I never knew I had it. For a long time, I probably didn't. When I was 15 I still got 94% in Maths, but the weird thing was, the question I did get wrong, was about numbers. It was something simple, like what is a million, or 10 million, or something like that, written in numerals, but I didn't know it. I never knew it, was it relevant to my life anyway?
The point is, maybe for people with dyscalculia, a lot of things aren't relevant. I didn't get 94% in Maths because I could remember things, I got it because I could solve things logically. Same with Physics. I got a B then, and by that time I wasn't concentrating anymore (nobody found I had ADD, because it was ADHD, and I wasn't hyperactive, it didn't really show). I was still a 'good' student by school standards, but I knew my work was slipping, and my attention for anything was slipping. Meanwhile, I was falling into depression.
By the time I got to university, it only got worst. I was devoid of any maths or science, because I was doing Art, but I was devoid of any motivation too. I was introverted, and I hardly hung out with anybody, even if I wanted to. I was very reclusive, maybe because noone invited me anywhere. I was on a verge of a crisis, so I did break down. I was really miserable and lonely, and wanted to die. I went on a trip, and at the same time, left university, because emotionally I couldn't deal with it. I went away, and went home when I ran out of money.
I was having a rough time with my parents, I still do. The cause of my depression and mania has always been them, and I am pretty sure what they have done to me would constitute abuse, in one way or another.
So what I am saying is, if you connect the dots, a lot of the reason why people fall into ADD or dyscalculia has more to do with social relationships, than with genetics, attention, or maths.
I am a intelligent person. And my IQ is higher than average. And it was really, really high when I was a child. Somehow things went bad for me, and while I'm not less intelligent, I haven't been able to grow and improve as exponentially as I did as a child, and I am now hindered by basic numeracy skills which I could not get due to emotional and mental stress.
The point is, maybe for people with dyscalculia, a lot of things aren't relevant. I didn't get 94% in Maths because I could remember things, I got it because I could solve things logically. Same with Physics. I got a B then, and by that time I wasn't concentrating anymore (nobody found I had ADD, because it was ADHD, and I wasn't hyperactive, it didn't really show). I was still a 'good' student by school standards, but I knew my work was slipping, and my attention for anything was slipping. Meanwhile, I was falling into depression.
By the time I got to university, it only got worst. I was devoid of any maths or science, because I was doing Art, but I was devoid of any motivation too. I was introverted, and I hardly hung out with anybody, even if I wanted to. I was very reclusive, maybe because noone invited me anywhere. I was on a verge of a crisis, so I did break down. I was really miserable and lonely, and wanted to die. I went on a trip, and at the same time, left university, because emotionally I couldn't deal with it. I went away, and went home when I ran out of money.
I was having a rough time with my parents, I still do. The cause of my depression and mania has always been them, and I am pretty sure what they have done to me would constitute abuse, in one way or another.
So what I am saying is, if you connect the dots, a lot of the reason why people fall into ADD or dyscalculia has more to do with social relationships, than with genetics, attention, or maths.
I am a intelligent person. And my IQ is higher than average. And it was really, really high when I was a child. Somehow things went bad for me, and while I'm not less intelligent, I haven't been able to grow and improve as exponentially as I did as a child, and I am now hindered by basic numeracy skills which I could not get due to emotional and mental stress.
posted by X at 11:33 PM
1 Comments:
Hi i think i may have dyscalcuia but i am not sure. I use to say to people i was just dyslexic when it came to maths. I have never understood maths and to this day i still dont. I was always in the bottom maths classes, i received Learning Support to help me with maths until i was 12 years old and then it stopped. I dont know why it stopped cause it wasnt like i was einstein at maths. People just dont get it and me for that matter- how can a 21 year old not be able to subtract and do her times-tables. Anyway ironically i am at college doing a maths course which is sooooo hard i just dont get it. I am also working fulltime as a Stock Controller so basically i deal with numbers everyday but i am getting there. I think you are really cool to go onto uni. I can barley do college let alone uni
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